I really wished we're back to how we were in the past.
I know it's not easy, but i believe we can do it if we had the determination to do so.
I understand that you're having family problems now.
You can share it with me ugh, i'll go through it with you.
I still love you from where we started from, and i don't wanna end it.
The video right above shows what i'll do (:
No matter what i definitely would wait for you, I promise.
Remember how much fun we had together in the past?
We spent almost everyday of our time together, the way we show love for each other.
We did many many things together.
We spent our time in fm together, and even once you met your so called korkor there and he foolishly believe that you're a girl.
We had our maple wedding successfully and we knew that we love each other more from then on. I still save the link in my bookmark section of my internet browser and occasionally i'll click on the link and remember of our wonderful memories that we had.
We had a video of our wedding, right? The song used was your favorite song the last time.
We had a desktop display picture specially for both of us.
We had a forum account together, called S&M's which stands for Skepz&Monkie's.
We even had a secret video that i did for you. I remembered that you say the video was touching and you loved it.
We use to say "You're my world, my everything, You're all that i need."
Besides all this, there are still many things that we've done together.
It's all part of our wonderful memories ugh.
I'm not willing to give up everything just like that and i guess you too.
I miss the sweet smses that you always send me every single day.
I miss the way you tease me.
I miss the fun that we had together
I miss how we love each other.
I miss how we shared youtube links with each other.
I miss the morning and night smses that you sent me regardless of anything.
I miss you.
I miss everything.
I'm crying as i'm writing this blog entry ugh.
I'll remember the promises that you made.
But are you there to complete those promises?
I'm trying my best to tell myself that everything would get back to how it was.
I'm trying to save the relationship between us.
Jeeez, i love you the way you are.
I even brought up the courage to meet you as i'm scared that you wouldn't like how i am.
I was afraid that you would not like it.
I was shy and i knew you were as well.
I tried to pick up a conversation but it didn't turn out how it should be.
We dint talked much on the day that we first met.
But i believe, after countless times we meet again.
It'd be different, it can be just like how we ever discussed during we sms.
I've been thinking about you everyday.
I don't need anything in return for what i've done for you.
Whatever that i had done for you is because i love you.
Oftenly, i would say this to you "I love you, I miss you, I need you."
It's true ugh, it comes right from my heart.
Well, i doubt if i'm able to let go of this relationship.
By means if i really had to, i'll always be waiting for you and loving you forever.
When i received your smses today, i was overjoyed.
As i've been waiting for it.
I thought you wouldn't sms me anymore as you said you would mia.
Baby, please.
Don't mia from me.
Sighs.
Uhmms, since you don't like that i send you things.
I'll tell you what i thought of getting you ugh.
I thought of getting a minnie mouse plush toy for you, a letter & a box of 99 handmade straw hearts with one hidden and writing "Will you be mine" on the top of it and the other 98 writing "You're awesome, You're great, You're wonderful, etcetc."
&Don't say that you're faithless anymore.
You know what's the meaning of it?
It means unworthy of trust or faith.
You are worthy of trust or faith, who says you're not?
I trust you and you're worthy of my trust.
Don't ever think of yourself that you're not.
Lastly, i would like to ask you.
Will you be mine once again?
With love,
Pamela.
Love brought us together and we'll last forever.
